DUDE, it’s hot. I have 103 on my gauge on the shop. The black ‘cobweb funnel spiders’ (who the fuck knows there real name? … I could look it up, but then I would have to look at photos of spiders) anyway — house spider? … they’re roasting in the cracks they hide in during the day, so they’ve all come out to perch on their webbing so that their legs and body does not touch the super heated surfaces — so god damn, my shop, my house, everything is crawling with spiders right now. I feel like I have a spider on me. Ugh, they’re so gross.
My old trailer home is pretty humble. It’s an old ’91. I think I lived in a 91 back in 91. Fire season usually takes out a trailer or two for various reasons. “Broken Hearts in the Trailer Park” I think about every part of this trailer has been kinda, well rebuilt at one time or another.
Okay so I kinda live in a dumpy little area, neighbors are hoarders and occasionally utter assholes (the ones who burn rubber / trash / arsenic laced wood) — but — but — hear me out, I have access to miles of trails and the ocean from here. It’s very primitive living at times but I think I’m lucky, it’s beautiful and I have a lot of critter friends and…. the price was right. Thanks to the hoarders possibly, we did get a pretty good deal. The other neighbors are solid gold epic awesome. I really like them a lot, and they’re super duper nice.
It was so warm today that the three baby raccoons snuck out of the woods to come play war of the water bucket. They tussle and fight and roll around and dunk in the bucket. I keep it clean and full of fresh water. Eventually the mother came and hustled them back into the safety of the warm woodlands. The swamp water gets very brackish this time of year, so I keep out fresh, I make sure the bucket is clean.
Yesterday I road Zwift but then spent all day on my feet doing a ‘food-crawl’ through Ilwaco and Longbeach with my two kids. It was a great bit of fun. We had all kinds of amazing food. I did hold back a bit because my liver / pancreas / kidneys no longer are fully on board with eating with abandon. I was dead beaten by walking all day but came home and prepared a Naples crust pizza that was really good. My youngest is now 22, so I don’t get to hang out with them together too much anymore.
Today I did Zwift, went grocery shopping, and then road my bicycle around the park for an hour.
I am keeping active but diet wise I just absolutely suck. I love to cook and I’m great at it. I have marinated chicken with mashed potatoes, green beans and maybe another side for tonight.
I guess I’ll figure it all out eventually. It’s nice to be feeling better and finally have a tan. It wouldn’t be so bad gaining weight if I had the build for it and if I wouldn’t immediately get shoved over the red line into diabetes — but my body just does not handle weight. It doesn’t go to my hips or chest or anything like that, it just sucks. There are some very beautiful curvy women out there, don’t change, but I’m built like a stick, a fat stick. I was 5’6″ and about 110lbs for a lot of my life, so 190 — yeah that’s way too damn much.
Okay later.
