This is the beach this morning at around 10:30 am, 56 degrees, 7mph wind — pretty still on the beach actually. The fog never really cleared today, kinda how my head feels also. 20 minute practice run, in Brooks this time. Testing out various shoes on the sand.

Since I last posted in, I had a 3 mile long run which was a loop in Ft. Stevens around Battery Russel. I had a 6+ mile bike ride. I took a hike on a warm sunny afternoon and was beaten back by a rather tall hill in the National Park. I’ve done a few Zwift workouts, I’ve rowed some. I haven’t been back to the gym, trying to get all the goodies out of the summer I can (also the gym has no air-con, cause’ this is Oregon and it only gets really warm here a few weeks per year).

Fort Stevens, Hammond Oregon bicycle ride, first part of the ride absolutely no one around. Not even the usual mosquitoes! I’ve ridden a few times but the 6 mile loop is my standard. With the bumps and tourists and so forth it’s not a trail to go very fast on, but I go out to the parking lot and I can practice speed there.
The old man cat, seriously grumpy but also likes snuggle time
I had not seen these critters in a few weeks but on a warm day they came up and played in the fresh-water bucket I keep clean and topped off out back. The swamp water gets pretty salty and brackish this time of year.

On the bike ride I saw a baby/juvenile coyote. It was so stinking cute. There are loads of baby California ground squirrels in the park playing around also. The baby crows are also growing up, they’re as big as the parents but have a real distinctive whining caw. The nest in the shop has four eggs but no baby flycatchers yet (little brown birds who make nests in there every year). A few baby elk are about. I guess it’s been an alright year for critters.

Only in an imaginary world would I ever take KOM points, lol – I hate hills and well, I ride at sea level. Nice Pinarello! I think I need a second water bottle on there though. I better have electric gear shifting on that imaginary bike.

Sometimes, and I imagine this is always a dude, will get all butt hurt in the Zwift gaming cycling app — “duh dur dur dur…why do people not ride the right bike for this event? dur dur” and they could…”have won if that dur dur dur up front wasn’t sand baggin’ this event!” They always, always, ALWAYS could have won if someone else wasn’t cheating. I’m usually like, win? Are we even racing – ya know this isn’t real right? Fuckin’ hell man I’m trying to watch Youtube financials on International business and some moron is losing his shit about a virtual gaming app. God, I hate to know these morons IRL. It’s pretty funny. I like collecting kit in the game but haven’t unlocked much in the past few months.

EF Education / Easy Post with possibly the worst kit of all time, I’ve heard, for some reason people keep calling this PURE fucking cringe. Gosh, I don’t know why though. 8 year old me rejoices at the clashing colors of pink they picked out. Oooh magenta and carnation? Give me!

Speaking of cycling stuff — heard the EF team is going to put bicycle baskets on their bicycles next year along with streamers on the handlebars.

According to a post on Twitter Jonathan Vaughters said that although it might slow the team down a little they can put water bottles in the basket and even a couple of bandaids encase a cyclist goes down on a hair pin turn.

Also — total rumor — they’re going to have to pay extra for anyone to ride for them. Eh’ just what I read on the Internet, you know how that goes. My opinion is they need to add a Unicorn. Unicorns kick ass.

I usually crash at this point

Well, I usually don’t do this well for so long before I’m exhausted and stop recovering. But this time I’m kinda doing alright.

I have depression. I’m a bit of an emotional mess. I’m not sure why. One afternoon I was okay, I took a nap and woke up a completely destroyed mess. My mental did a 180. I had a bad dream again, dead people again, and well … part of my culture is that you start getting messages from beyond when you’re about to go reside with them. But also I felt like they were trying to tell me something. I don’t know, I haven’t been right since then damn it.

I’m reading a book about cycling and it says sometimes the best strategy is to take care of yourself and commit. So I’m committing. I’m taking care of myself. I hope it leads somewhere besides being a neurotic middle aged woman.