I colored my hair today and picked up a bit but only managed 20 minutes on the bike. I haven’t had enough stamina to cycle or walk around the store. I have had difficulties breathing and chest tightness although it’s better today. I have had a bad headache for two days.
Although I usually don’t skip stationary cycling I haven’t been able to Zwift. I haven’t had enough stamina to sit and paint. I haven’t been able to go out on walks or stand for a long time to cook. I have read in the Japanese textbook but haven’t had enough oomph to go chase down answers to questions I have, to fully digest sections that are harder to understand and eventually gave up the effort as being beyond me.
But today I colored my hair and spent 20 minutes on the bike so maybe I’m rebounding.
I have felt like my body is cashing in and giving up on me. I haven’t given up on it but I have so little energy left it does feel as if I’m dying.
I dream of being able to ride my bike outside, go for morning runs, spend afternoons painting — but it seems like a long way off. If I had to go fight to survive and work a job, it would be all over.
