Sugar addiction is real.
I’m really struggling to stay away from sugar and ween off the caffeine. My brain constantly bargains with me… a little won’t hurt. What about holidays? Everyone loves your cooking! It would be a shame if that went to waste….what will you do during the movie?
Drink green tea. That’s my answer. Sometimes I put Stevia in it but that doesn’t really help. My brain knows the con. I’m on day 2 and luckily I removed sweets from the house.
I lost two people to diabetes this year. That’s why I started this blog. I always wrote my Dad everyday. He had gangrene twice and lost a leg from Diabetes. That disease really stole a lot from him, he wasn’t himself.
Now I don’t have anyone to talk to.
Not about the goofy stuff I talked to my Dad about.
Season 2 of Blind Frog Ranch is out. It is AWESOME!!! I love it soooo much. Before he passed away I told him he had to subscribe to Discovery+ just to watch season 1. It’s just that good. If he was alive, he would absolutely love this new season. I also sent him a book about Skinwalker ranch. He said it was scary, I think the print was too small for him to read easily and he just told me that.
My sugar intake was a lot worse after Dad passed despite the freakin’ obvious of what killed him. And maybe I should take a moment to discuss that almost the same damn thing killed my Mom and that both of them were always healthier than me. Mom had high blood pressure, and they’ve really found a link to that and diet / sugar. Salt is rather a scape goat — and that tracks. I never saw my Mom without a soft drink at hand. She probably consumed almost all her calories via soda.
I know a vegetarian who does that also, he seems okay, but he doesn’t smoke. Both of my parents smoked.
I’m prediabetic, overweight and have health issues.
All I want is sugar and caffeinated drinks, I want to slide down that hole and never come back to reality.
The world is sharper off sugar, but I’m tired, I ache all over, my head hurts.
I was eating between a cup and a half to two cups of sugar per day since Dad died. (In other items of course, not straight). I had managed an extra thousand calories per day. I didn’t balloon up because I have a pretty good metabolism actually. I’m pudgy but it could be much worse.
I thought about going low-carb, or carnivore or even Keto, but with my digestive disease the easiest first step was to get off sugar then work on other things if I need to.
The world is really scary and sometimes awful. Today I bought meat and an alarm went off. They’re putting ‘tattle tape’ on the meat because it’s so expensive and keeps getting stolen. Gas was up to $4.69 a gallon. Oi’ a few years ago I was teased sooo bad for getting a fuel efficient car. Glad I bought the ol’ girl now.
Dad would be worried if he was still alive. I guess that’s a silver lining.
I don’t think I can take this again.
I’m serious.
I have these nightmares about all these dead people shuffled in talking to me. Last night my Grandma had the funniest hat on, and I was laughing, “Oh you would like that!” She said she had gotten it at a vacation spot. It was wide brimmed, cloth with orange and pretty just straight up awful but she loved it.
I need to study Japanese more, that keeps the dreams at bay. A lot of anime have this theme you know: LOOK FORWARD. I’ve heard an American version of, “just don’t look down — keep going.”
If I lost my husband or kids it would kill me. I have known that since I buried my Mom. She died at age 54. Sudden. So much left unfinished, and I was like 29 or something – pretty young. It’s never a good death with so much left hanging.
I wonder if I am doing this all on purpose – if I go first I won’t have to lose anyone else. I was up to eating around a pound of Skittles a day. I’m not kidding, and I’m not exaggerating. I would place $40 orders on Amazon every few days.
Anyway, I figured I would be a lot more honest if I kept a blog.
I haven’t worked out much, just too exhausted and feeling like crap, but I’ll be back to it, I promise. I studied a little Japanese lately but not the 3 hours a day like I was attempting.
Watch Blind Frog Ranch — it’s goooood.
PS — if you have type 2 Diabetes, investigate the work of Dr. Roy Taylor a researcher from Nottingham UK and a professor, i.e. not a get-rich-diet-guru-doc. He proved that a low-calorie 8 week diet could curtail and stop type 2 Diabetes depending on length of time of the disease.
